山城生活

如题。

看完功夫熊猫回来，整个影厅只有我一个人，笑的捧腹。

Ich habe zu viele drinken, aber es ist gut!  Na ya.

Nacht!

Nothing serious really happened and it's somehow normal. But I am not happy. I can smell it all around and you don't even need to look deep through my heart.

No need to murmur or shout out or cry one's heart out, or the usual it's-gonna-be-fine kind of self-deception.

I am out of my mind to some extend. No doubt.

OK, the phenomenon: no interest in anything, no motivation, no I-want-to-do feeling. somehow the living dead in heart.

I am not happy with my messed-up personal life, still----it has been a while since since(I really do not know or I am not brave enough to tell, WELL, be honest and brave!!!) since I have broken up with Anna Singer in 2006. It matters. It make no sense to be like the adult talking the past-is-past nor the it-takes-time bullshit. I am a poor guy with basically Zero EQ. Ever since I was a kid, I act like this, quickly shifting my mind from the bad to the others and pretending everything-is-fine and smile the heart out! Stop it and face your real heart.

Qimeng is talking to the...... moon: Anna, I don't care if you can see this or not. The other day you told me that I always told you I was fine and I did not hate you. But to be honest, I hated you at that time. You disappeared without even a single sign. I tried everything to contact you. I called your mother in Bud Duerheim many times, I contacted your best firend. But you dissappeared. You used to be so happy with our engagement. But what the hell happened at that time? You never talked to me. You told me you were so sorry at that time and you even loose 10 kilos. But I hated you at that time because I was so much loving you. Weist du, Lieber Anna!!!! I believed that we would spent out life together. You let me down and you broke my heart. Then I messed up my life for the later two years. What can I say, it's my problem. I already forgived you. You are just a little gir and maybe it's too early for you at that time. Fcuk it!

Fcuk it!

I wanna a serious relationship.

feeling down, as ADai talked that I am so desperated.

problem of attitude.

or......

let-it-be is not just to express your absence of control ability over your life, it's also about when-it-is-time-it-comes.

Vielen Danke/Auf Wiedersehn...

Nacht.

心中默念50变，对着月亮伸展身体，抽3颗烟。

Kinda of, things have been changed, people as well. Memory is not reliable, especially for me. Feeling is one way. Fortunatly, friend is still friend.

nonsense....

陕西路支行到三峡广场支行我坐公共汽车，418。1点半出发，3点的时候睁开眼，叫：“司机，开哈门”司机很诧异：“浪个还有人！！！”我解释到：“睡着了睡着了，没啥子没啥子”。站了好一会睁开眼，看到桥下的一个加气站，正好有出租车，上车，走。。。至今我还不知道我到底停到哪里去了。

听歌很惬意。

颠簸～～～～

总结一下好玩的或者应该记住的东西：水上森林里有螃蟹；蜈蚣好大一只；好多山和水，好潮湿；大排档的烧烤和四瓶茅台；我乱扔烟头被罚款。。。。。。

上几张照片吧。

99年上大学，都快10年了，本科，研究生，ipc，分手分手，经历了这么多，心态不变是不可能。都说30而立，快30了，也是。朋友很多也结婚了。老气横秋就老气横秋了。哇卡卡卡卡。

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